First Date

break away from the crowd,
wave off all the lies.
tonight will be different,
full of endless surprise.

im not like the rest,
thank you for your trust.
unique for my time,
not driven by lust.

your calm and caressing,
like the rare summer breeze.
a new feeling inside,
getting weak at the knees.

the night fully lit,
we sneak into the pool.
the heart you had last,
tainted by a fool.

losing train of thought,
going in for the kill.
our lips meet for a moment,
a rush of the thrill.

staring at each other,
your heart beating fast,
a story in the making,
with a happy ending at last.

i actually wrote two poems in one day. can you say, productive? i didnt do shit at work except get fucking depressed listening to Deftones, i had to write something. man, this shit sucks, and by shit i mean loneliness. but i guess thats what helps me pick out everything i want to say. ive been wondering these last few days about alot of things, but mostly about my writing. i guess being the hopeless romantic is part of my persona now, because as much i want to disconnect from that, the more im drawn back to it. i dont have shit else to talk about. i do surprise myself with the things that i write sometimes, mainly because it expresses things so clearly and vividly in a way that i could never interpret to speech, much less tell the person its directed to face to face.

 as much as i deny writing about someone in specific, that's total bullshit. all the post i write about are inspired by someone who i had a place in myself for. its impossible for me to write about something thats nonexistent. so behind each post there is a girl who inspired me to write it. of course im never going to say who its about, but if they ever read it, they'll immediately know it was for them. its that obvious, but only to the right person. still though, i wish i could write something happy for once, without all the melancholic bullshit. but i guess thats my style. hopeless romanitc.  


please give the music i post on my blogs a chance. everyone has their own opinion on music tastes, and im ok with that, just dont knock my music if you havent even heard it yet. this is the song i heard all day today. enjoy.