Armas y Amigos (Guns and Friends)

Im writing this shit at work. I know, im fortunate enough to have a job where I can type and still get paid. Trust me, its not  always like this. Well as usual ive been slacking in my blog updates. I don’t write anymore, and I feel like I have a natural talent for this that im wasting away. I did brainstorm ideas for the book that I want to start.  It comes down to two ideas. The first one being about a teenager in civil war 80’s El Salvador having to choose what’s more important to him, his friends or his patriotism (That  story is loosely based on my father).The second idea is to write about a cop in LA that’s caught in the wrong place at the wrong time.  More than likely ill to the Civil war story. That’s as much as im going to say about them.  Ill probably get started on them this weekend.

How have you guys been? I really want to know. I fucked up my shoulders recently (yesterday) by stress. I don’t even know what the fuck im stressed about.  I have no worries at the moment. Maybe ive been pushing myself too hard. Oh well. It’s almost gone now.  

Well that’s most of what I wanted to say today. Ill get back with guys Monday. Hopefully I’ll have a page written by then.  Until then guys, take care, god bless,  and stay out of trouble.

Here’s some Spanish rock for you guys. The band is called Insite and I heard them about 5 years ago. i really like them.

Among the Sleep

im crying right now. i want someone to hold me in her arms and tell me its ok......just fucking with you. im ok dudes. how have you guys been? i got nothing new to report. same shit different day. guess what? tomorrow is mudda fucking valentines day, and let me tell you, i fucking hate this day so much. two reasons why. number one: single people feel like complete social shit on that day. and number two. you guys in relationships feel obligated to buy your significant other some sort of gift that supposed to symbolize your relationship. fuck that. you should be showing your love everyday, no matter if it is valentines day or not. and thats what people dont understand. 

and another thing that pisses me off is people mostly use that day as an excuse to get laid. if you didnt get in their pants already, dont expect anything to go down (no pun intended). im glad i dont believe in these little bullshit wanna be holidays. my ass would go broke buying shit for every occasion.

well it looks like im spending another valentines day alone. i know, i just got through talking shit about cupids work day, but fuck it. having someone else's company wouldnt hurt. being single every valentines day in your life does get boring.

before i sign off for tonight, i really want everyone reading this to put in their two cents on a specific matter. i really want to write a book. thing is, what the fuck should i write about? in my head i have this story about a serial killer going on a rampage one last night trying to meet his body count goal. dont fucking ask why i would write about that, just know i love horror movies and sad endings with a little dab in-fucking-sane shit. should i go with it or no?

now if you excuse me, im gonna go watch sleepless in seattle and cry myself to sleep. good fucking night. 

Bulls On Parade

hell yeah im in the mood to piss some mother fuckers off tonight! just giving the readers a heads up, if you dont like talking about politics, then just leave my blog and go back to your facebook, because shit is about to serious and i dont give a fuck.

i just now remembered that this is an election year. just goes to show you how much faith ive lost in our political system. i havent followed politics ever since i graduated high school. i quit following that shit because everyone wanted to vote for Obama. i mean what the fuck? every black person i met wanted to vote for Obama. And i know damn well most of them didnt follow his campaign for shit. it pissed me off so much because this guy couldve said "i wanna be the next hitler" and people would still vote for him. it goes to show how much our society is still invisibly segregated. the way i see politicians running for president are like car salesman. they offer you so much shit and benefits that in the end they end up not being able to hold their end of the agreement. something i noticed too is that most of these mother fuckers got talking game. theyre like the players of bureaucracy. these dudes can basically convince you into believing their empty promises.

for instance, lets look at the number one promise that hispanics/latinos looked forward to: immigration reform. i dont give a fuck what you say, this and our economy were the things i really wanted to get fixed. in all honesty, i have family here right now members who are in dire need for that reform to pass. and it saddens me that this was just put in the back burner on the governments to do list. the majority of the latin population was fooled into following the promises of a political puppet. instead what does obama do? he reforms fucking healthcare. nobody gave a shit about it. it was a big deal for a long time and it was finally revised, but what do you have now? a bunch of ungrateful fucks who try and milk the government out of MY tax money. and why the fuck is america trying to create a more secure border and build a higher fence down south? there is always a way in! people have to understand that if someone wants to live a better life they will do what is neccesary to overcome all adversity. then americans have the balls to say that they want to get rid of all illegal immigrants because they dont pay taxes. well no fucking shit. if we just go ahead and make them legal, we wouldnt have this problem would we?

and now the war on terror. Americas biggest failure. when was the last time we america won a war? world war II? the korean war is technically still being fought. vietnam was a complete failure and embarrassment. they also failed to achieve anything in el salvador when my father fought for them. not even troops from here could stop the guerilla forces in el salvador. in the end there was a cease fire between both sides on the year i was born, 1991. the american presence did nothing but add more fuel  to the fire. AND guess who was the one supplying the the GUERILLAS and TERRORIST with weapons? thats right, big daddy ronald reagan sold weapons to nicaragua, a COMMUNIST country first of all, who then ran guns and explosives up to el salvador, he indirectly aided and funded war.

now the big story, both gulf wars. the first one was  a failure in itself since saddam hussein ended up still alive and in power. the current war now is just fucking pointless. what the fuck did Iraq have to do with 9/11? i honestly want to know. and where the hell did george "dubya"get info that there were weapons of mass destruction in Iraq? its sounds kind of shady because satellite surveillance is a national past time now, so why did we all of a sudden AFTER 9/11, invade Iraq? you would think that by now we would have cold, concrete proof of something supposedly so massive and destructive. and its kind of hard to hide big ass nuclear missiles when your under american surveillance. i always get this bullshit that i should be more patriotic. fuck that. why do i want to go to war for something i dont fully understand or believe in? every soldier chooses to enlist. they are never forced. so i have no problem telling someone to fuck off when they bitch about everything they go through. YOU fucking chose to be a soldier. dont whine to me about all the sacrifices you make and all this bullshit. you yourself dont even know what your fighting for.

"theyre fighting for your freedom asshole!" i hear this shit all the time. what the fuck?! i never knew we were enslaved! you say theyre fighting for our freedom like we were under some dictators rule. is that your fucking excuse for starting wars and invading countries? please. go live in a third world country for a year and then see how much you love it here after.  america is the fucking laughing stock of the world. they should worry more about getting us out of this shit hole economy than what osama bin laden was having for dinner before they killed him.

i think thats enough for today. ill work on part 2 of this tomorrow. its going to be about modern day society and how fucking stupid my generation is. for all of you that are pissed off at me about todays blog, i love you too, and more than likely i dont give a fuck what you think. ive always been a political "aficionado" since i could remember. at one point in high school i even wanted to be a congressman. but as the times have changed, so have my beliefs. i dont know who or what to believe in anymore, politically speaking. i wish i had the answers to all our problems, but im no leader. im just another person trying to understand a simple question: why?

by the way, i hope you guys share this with all your friends. i would love some feedback. a nice written piece going against me would be great. leave a comment here or on my facebook, shit you can even send me a text saying "go to hell!" and ill reply back. these are my OPINIONS and if you feel differently please let me know. Oh and hate mail is always welcomed.

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Love you!!!!! LETS GET POLITICAL IN THIS MOTHER FUCKER!!!!