2am

its 2am on a friday night. im laying in my bed with the fan on full blast and the a/c hitting my bed. again, my insomnia isnt letting me sleep, which i actually dont mind. im off this whole weekend, so its ok. music of choice tonight? deftones. what better way to start off my shitty weekend than with some mellow and depressing music from Sactown's greatest band.

my room starts to get cold, i like it. as weird as it sounds, the cold makes me feel the music more. it heightens my emotional senses,but i want something more. i wish i had someone else to listen to music with, just like in the movies. i know it wont happen, but you cant blame a guy for wishing right? those late nights are times i really feel alone, because when the rest of the world is sleeping, in my head im drowning in the deep end of the pool with cinder blocks tied to my legs. i just cant sleep.

some company isnt going to hurt, and its always welcomed. especially at 2am.