Risk

the new girl in the store,
what's her name please? i forget.
interested to know more,
he wont forget the day they met.

sometimes at work they chilled,
a slow start for two friends.
then they started to build,
a friendship that never ends.

it started with an invite,
grocery shopping just for fun.
sharing laughs all through the night,
until the job was done.

they grew on one another,
spending nights just talking shit.
being there for each other,
the only crime they did commit.

then one went away,
the story started to change.
he had nothing to say,
then their friendship became strange.

strangers of the past,
keeping distance for their sake.
learning that nothing will last,
but its a risk they're willing to take.


last week i felt something i never imagined would happen to me. i felt needy. for once in my life, i wanted to talk to someone. i was coming back home from school and all of a sudden..... i just had this urge to talk to someone. so i scrambled through my phone to see who i thought would want to talk. and it wasnt like i had anything important to say, i just really, really, really wanted some human interaction. So as im scrolling through my phone list, i realized, that, no one in my contacts gives a shit what i have to say. just plain and simple. im not going to bother someone because of my own needs. i have never done that, and i dont plan on doing so in the future. it seems so inconsiderate of myself to do something like that. i always put top priority on everyone else. maybe thats why im where im at now. who knows? but what i do know is that that was a lonely ass drive back home.

i wrote this in my free time at work. about 20 minutes to do. it tells partly the story of someone i used to hang out with back in the day and how cool we were. obviously things didnt end to great. fuck it, thats life. sorry if it came out shitty. i havent been doing this in awhile and im a little rusty. plus my english is getting limited for some reason. looks like its time to bust out 1984 from my mini library and read my ass off.

on a side note, my vacation is coming up in 2 weeks, and im not doing anything extravagant this year, but i wish i could go back to my adopted country Spain *sad face* who's got nothing to do and wants to hang out? and whats fun to do in houston?......