Ahh spring break. its the time of the year were the idiots of college blow their cash buying enormous amounts of alcohol and girls flash their boobs for a t-shirt. its that time of the year were you wake up next to someone you dont even remember meeting and wondering what you did the night before. for some reason, this is fucking fun? i mean i honestly could give two fucks what people do in their own time. but i hate how my generation is the fuck up generation. our parents have every single right to be worried because they see what happens during spring break.
fuck it i dont want to write why i hate spring break. the point is its fucking stupid and overrated. there's nothing special other than limitless amounts of alcohol and half naked sluts spreading syphilis.
i think i found out why im such an asshole.its the music i listen to. everything i hear has this fuck the world attitude and so do i. its all the anger i have built up inside of me that it escapes into the form of being a smart ass and total dick. i also noticed that its getting harder and harder for me to control myself in public. i have to catch myself from saying something to anyone that pisses me off. one time i came so close to spitting in this guys face for acting like an asshole when i was paying for my lunch. what the fuck is happening to me? i know im better than this. i know i have self control, because i havent fucked up so far in my life. the anger that ive hidden from everyone is finally coming out. and i dont give a fuck who you are, stay the hell out of my way. the violent side of me is surfacing as each day wears on. the worst is yet to come.
and people still have the fucking audacity to ask me why i dont drink. i havent smoked a cigarette in a while, and ive never drank. ive tried stuff,as in tasting it, but i just dont drink. and this is what i hate about todays tv. it shows that for you to have a good time, you have to drink. bull fucking shit. guess what mother fuckers? i never knew my two grandparents. my father never knew his father because he was a drunk. the other one died because of liver failure. they both beat my grandmothers. i have a cousin out of rehab that when in for drugs and drinking. an uncle of mine just got divorced and hes an alcoholic. and with that family history you still want me to drink? go fuck yourself.
another reason i dont touch the stuff is because i can guarantee you i am a violent drunk. of course i dont know tht, but one would assume with my current mental and emotional state, i am certified crazy. thats like trying to put out a fire with gasoline. your not doing shit. but i guess if i were drunk my insults will be funnier, at least to me. i need to calm down on the insults too. i always have something to say about anything and especially everyone. its NEVER anything nice.i talk shit about people who dont have anything to do with me. i overdue for a good ass beating.
damn it feels good to vent. tomorrow ill vent my hate on the human race. its been a long time since i hated the world in writing. by the way, my favorite rapper Cage just released some dope shit called Super Baked. this is the music i was talking about fucking with my head.
" I don"t know if god gave me this brain if he did then theirs a devil and he knows my name."
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